i wanna do something active

i wanna go hike or play basketball

i wanna do a sport but im too poor for karate or dance

couldnt get a scholarship for badminton so now im at a school with no badminton

cant play college sports cuz im not good enough

ive felt so sad since last night

idek why there’s no reason

its haikyuu day and im sad

i dont even wanna go see people i just wanna run but i told a friend id spend the night at xer house and i love them to death but aghh i dont know

i dont even know what i want

help